aish.. apa nk jd dgn ati aku ni.. camne aku leh ada hati kat dia lak????

argh xphm aku ngan prasaan ni.. dia dok elok2 camtu n xsedar pn kehadiran aku ni.. aku leh suka kat dia.. aish

adakah sbb bermula dgn benci n akhirnya mnjd cinta????????? ah ntahlah tp benda ni menyakitkan.. dia xtau aku suka dia.. =((

fedup btul la ngan prasaan hati ni.. camne nak ilangkannya.. dia xpernh anggap aku penting pn.. apa2 berlaku dlm idup dia xpernh nk bgtau aku.. kenapa aku suka kat dia??????? kenapa? kenapa?

oh hati buangla dia dr otak n hati aku.. dia xphm lgsg isi ati aku ni... wawawaawawawa.....

tensennya.... but i miss him already.. stp ari dia online tp ktorg berckp benda yg biasa je.. dia xsedar ke hati aku ni?????? wawawawa..

aku tanya dia kat mana pn rahsia... smuanya rahsia.. aish.. tp kalu kt kwn lain xrahsia la lak.. aish.. kena lenyapkan diri ni.. nak pegi jauh dr smua ni... bencinya.. prasaan apa ni?????????????

aku tkt nk msg dia nnti dia tau lak ati aku.. ishkishk..  maybe dia dah lupakan aku lepas ktorg xcontact sjk 6 bulan lepas.. tp aku leh lak jth hati kt dia dlm 2 3 minggu ni... huahauhauhauhauhuahau


forget him already.. dia suka kat kwn aku yg lain (kot) .. huahuahaua smoga mereka bahagia..

17 oct this year was Deepavali day.. so i celebrated it with them lol..

so many things happened in past 2 months..

the man that think  when im good with them so i got crash on them!!! watever.. i can be a gud fren for everyone.. doesnt meant that they r doc that i hv to like them!!! so stop be someone that full with themselves... argh... can even think about it.. i got so mad!!!!!!

ok calm down.. now i already relax.. dont think about it anymore n dont be so nice with man...
me n the bdk kg be fren again after 6 months.... he got flu n also has graduate.. congrate.. i dont know this time how much longer we can hold on.. lol we both always quarrel ... since standard 4.. =p

ok talk about my birthday.. this year was a bit different than the others time.. since the last 4 years i always celebrated it with all my frens at um.. i miss them so much =D

they bought me a cake n we sang n laughing all nite~~~~ argh so miss that moments... =D

but this yer eventhough only me , mum n dad at home.. we celebrated it also.. my dad bought a cake for me.. lol i think im old enough for that kinds of events.. lol.. n my parents took me for dinner n told me to order anything.. so i ended up ordered about 6 dishes... lol so full that nites... i dnt finish my own plates.. lol just ate the dishes.. kakakaka.... dont ever be like that .. we've only three people .. how can we finish it up??? lol

relationship?? erm  this one guy.. i've known him about 2 years now.. i dont know if i ve feeling for him.. but he likes to call n laughing.. well u see im nt so good when talking in the phone with the guy that im not very well known.. keke..
then.. i meet this one guy .. i dont know my feeling about him either.. but he also like to make a joke.. telling how pretty i am.. make any riddle for me.. lol.. let the time choose.. kekeke..

my fren from elementary school going to marry  this 21 nov.. n InsyaAllah i will be there.. mastura hope u happy forever =D

dh lama gak xupdate blog ni... mmg xde ms n xde mood kekekeke...

tmbhan dial up kt umah ni aish slow sgt2... nk suh abah tkr ni sbnrnyer,,, almaklumla skrg ni dh dok umah .. penganggur terhormatla katakan.. keke.. =P

sory dila aku xbuat tag tuh... tau2 ajela.. hehehe...

skrg ni nk msk 4 mggu aku abis prak... n waiting my LI result n dptkan surt tmt blaja.. hopefully la.. =D

hidup aku skrg...  erm keje xde lagi... kawin?? --- nanti kot.. keke even skrg ni ramai sgt kwn2 aku bertunang , kawinla.. n xkurg ada yg bakal menimang anak... tahniah ek kekawan.. =D all the best to u all..

adik aku pn dah blik bandung.. meneruskan pembelajaran dia kt sana.. Ya Allah smoga dilindungi adikku di sana.. skrg ni gempa bumi yg berlaku di Padang sgt dahsyat n alhamdulilah pelajar msia kt sana dh dibw pulang... tiap2 ari mak ngan abah dok risau pasal adik kt sana.. yela sapa xsyg anak kan.. n dia plak satu2nya adik aku.. huhuhu skrg heboh pasal sweeping lak.. aish... n i miss her rite now.. she will be back this dec.. lambt lg nk jumpa dia..

keje aku skrg kt umah slalunya melalak.. hhahaha.. abah aku ckp asyik melalak je.. keje xnk pastu suh kawin xnak.. hahha apa nk jd ngan anak dia sorg ni????  aku ada byk impian dlm idup.. stkt ni blaja di tgh kota yg pesat spt kl sudah tercapai but ada thousand dreams yg aku nk penuhkan...kakakka kononla kan.. xkisahla idup kan...=D

ry ke 7 aritu pi umah cikgu zarina braya n ke umah kawn2 yg lain... dlm 6 thn ni aku xpernah pi braya mana2.. tb2 thn ni aku muncul tu pn pasal fazil nk tumpangkan.. keke yela dia dah ada kete skrg ni.. hebat tuh MYVI putih lg tuh =D

jumpa ngan kwn2 lama time sek dl.. cam esmadi, teoh, fazil , sab, masitah n akram.. erm akram dh lama aku xjumpa since form 4.. sbb dia pi sek lain kan.. bdk 8 a's  tuh.. hehehe skrg tgh amik medic kt uia.. tahniah ek =D n masitah keje kt ipoh, sab tgh prak kt SMART factory, fazil kt balai polis ipoh , teoh kat kilang kayu kamunting ... n madi kt SHELL.. wow dahsyat tuh =D
sian dorg dtg umah aku mkn kuih ry jer pasalnya rushing sgt.. pg2 call kt nk pi braya umah cikgu zarina tuh.. so last2 skali sampai umah aku mkn je la apa yg ada.. abah pn dh pi keje.. huhu.. tp apa2 pn best jumpa dorg smua.. =D syg xamik pic sbb xde sapa bw kamera n xplak amik ngan hp.. tula sapa suruh.. kekeke

prasaan ati aku lak sjak kebelakangan ni ada skit xbtul.. aku tau dia sihat walafiat tu pn atas pertlgn kwn baikku.. thankz for that =D n skrg ni kena move on.. idup aku dh nk msk fasa lain .. kena berubah n jd lbh kuat serta trima org yg sygkan kt not the other side!! =D

aku ingt nk blaja kete.. tp camne nk blaja aku ni penakut?? aish.. tbhkanla atiku ni..

smoga aku mndpt keje yg baik n bakal suami yg baik .. amin  =D

aku baru shj pulang drpd bandung, indonesia.. =D

selama 4 ari aku di sana.. erm aku xleh nk celoteh byk sgt sbb skrg aku ada byk benda nk buat.. kekeke

memandgkan jumaat ni supervisor aku Dr. Ng nak dtg cni.. mcm2 la skjp dr ida.. skjp dr norizan.. aish..

xpe2 lupakan tu smua.. yg pntg upload 1 pic kat sana.. =D




----> dlm flight

arini aku nak meluahkan pendapat skit.. bukan apa.. sejak kebelakangan ni asyik keluar pasal nk cr jodoh yg diploma or degree...  aku pn cam terpanggil utk membicarakan benda ni..

salah ke kalu org yg amik degree nak lelaki yg amik degree gak sebagai teman hidup ???? bukanla memilih.. sbbnya kalu dah jodoh xke mana kan.. kalu aku mmg ditakdirkan utk berkahwin dgn org bukan degree apa leh dikatakan.. =D tp seboleh2nya aku mengharapkan lelaki yg mempunyai kelayakan akademik yg sama atau pun lebih tinggi dr aku...  maybe org akan ckp yg aku ni demand la.. apa lagi la.. tp ni cuma impian aku je.. =D InsyaAllah.. n aku xkisah pn degree apa yg pasangan aku amik as long as sama taraf ngan aku...

n aku pn bukan la hebat sgt pn.. tp aku merasakan pentingnya akademik dalam menjalinkan hubungan yg lbh serius.. mempunyai ikatan bermakna berkongsi apa sahaja.. n aku berpendapat kalu lain taraf akademiknya maka pemikiran pn berbeza.. byk sgt dah aku tgk org deg ni kawin ngan org sijil ke cthnya n seangkatannya mesti ada mcm2 msalah yg timbul.. tp aku xnafikan mmg ada yg bahagia sampai akhir hayat..

i hope so with myself.. be happy forever with him n always love me for what i am.. =D

juz want to share.. =D

Assalammualaikum wbt..

erm lama betul x update blog ni.. rsnya dah dekat 2 mggu ni.. skrg dh 6 mggu aku buat praktikal di PEJABAT TANAH TAIPING... bersama2 dengan 7 org rakan praktikal yg lain... aku ditmptkan di pentadbiran memandangkan di sini je ada juruteknik komputer iaitu kak Intan.. =D

termasuk aku terdpt lg 3 org yg mengambil courses yg sama cam aku.. iaitu pamela, akma n naim.. manakala sorg lg faezah br je menamatkan prak pd mggu lepas.. n kami smua pn meraikan faezah dengan majlis perpisahan..

sepnjg 6 mggu aku kt cni.. mcm2 perkara yg berlaku.. LOL.. tp yg paling best ialah bila ada sorg penolong akauntan ni yg menarik hati aku.. kekekeke... aku pernah ditmptkan di unit hasil iaitu tmpt  dia bekerja.. hehehe.. ari pertama bekerja dia melayan aku dgn baik n selalu suruh aku naik pentadbiran hantar surat.. hehehe.. but hari kedua n seterusnya dia xsuh aku buat apa2 lak.. ishk2.. pelik2... =P but bila2 pn aku suka tgk dia.. ekekekekek..

jumaat lepas kami smua pelajar prak pergi ke Kuala Sepetang disebabkan tiada jip yg kosong di bukit larut hari tu.. tp best gak..  =P oh pic kt cni ada kt pen drive yg linda pinjam lak.. so nntila upload..hehehe..

walaupun dah lama dok kt tpg ni tapi aku xpernah lagi naik bukit larut tu.. heheh...

kat bwh ni ada skit pic kat sana.. =D

wawawawa..


SA aka special A manga already finished... wawawawa... so sad ... the ending is just fine.. n somehow i felt like i wants it more... LOL

the last chapter is 99... wonder how much time i've spent to read that manga???kekekekke...

so thats it!!! finally Kei n Hikari stay forever.. its showed they will be in 3rd years student of high school... =D

since i watched its anime.. n then addicted to its manga.. im a real otaku?? doesnt i??????? kekekkeke...


--------> Special A is the greatest manga ever.. =D

finally at last my viva going smoothly.. Alhamdulilah

now im focusing on final xm.. but how can i say it.. erm i dont ever study it!!!!!! LOL ini smua pasal viva thesis yg menakutkan tuh.. sampaikan xstudy lgsg.. mana x nya aku nyer viva last skali ari jumaat kul 3... kekekekeke

sbnrnyer itu alasan jer.... kekekeke

arap2 pas abis xm aku dpt tmpt LI kt kg aku.. InsyaAllah

but the best thing ... nk pi Genting after xm.. ramai2 with dainun, noni, jun , fatnin n kak yat.. or maybe sumbody else... =P

my final xm:

20 April 2009
22 April 2009
23 April 2009
29 April 2009
2 Mei 2009

huuuuuuuh.. hope its going well... =D

lately im so busy with a lots of things..  i cant think anything rather than assignment and thesis.. my viva will be 17 april 2009..

yup like dila said.. my journal dah berhabuk dah.. LOL =P

i dont know what i want to write beside i hv my own diary. .... hehehe...

tomorrow i have 2 presentations.. i have to acting along with noni.. hope its going well...

but the most hardest thing is doing my FM assignment which is i dont know what to do.. since im from science stream before.. so i dont have any basic of that subject... i hope i can do it.. right now i feel really sleepy and tired..

so thats why im listening to hindustan song...

MGS 12 was finished and its the last for all of us... sweet memory.. and i dont upload the pictures anywhere... because i dont feel to doing it so..

my life is lonely n helpless ... just the same day everyday..... =P

so many things happened in this few weeks..  sometimes i feel i want to vomit.. with all of this..  LOL

the internet going back as usual.. thankz to azim hard work and others.. arigatou nee~~~ =D without them maybe we dunno what to do in weekend.. or even in weekdays..

to finish this semester many assignments are waiting and also the thesis ~~~~ maybe another 3 weeks its going to be VIVA.. the scariest thing that we gonna through.. huhuhu..

stil in a good condition.. hope it going well after this either.. ganbatte nee~~~

tomorrow will be a mid term at  Examination Building or BP at 9.30 o clock in the morning.. hope can answer it peacefully.... =D

at the evening im going to taman megah disability and disorder children at kelana jaya.. hope they happy to see us.. =D

......................... tired................

this is the last entry since starting tomorrow no more connection with the most precious things and proudly of this college.. which is internet.. 23 FEBRUARY 2009 is the day when all the relationship with me and all my fav webs... also my manga site.. my anime site.. my japanese drama..my donlod songs.. n others stuffs will be end soon... until end of this semester.. it must feel really lonely~~~~kya~~~

because im the one thats always in front of my laptop when is there an internet about 12 hours the most.. but after this i cant do that anymore.. its really gets me pissed off!!!... furthermore the master also wants to cut off all the internet starting next semester.. that is the crazy thing she should do!!!.. this college is already 12 years old this years.. same like the internet... its was an excelent idea from a previous senpai to make a cable internet here at 10th college of University of Malaya.. the only college that has an access of internet using the cable.. or LAN ( local area connection ) with 100 Mbps... thinking how much capable it is..

its my 4th year in this college using the internet.. for us who r from science comp faculty always proud that this college already provided the most needed thing to us.. =D  rather than other college using wireless.. its not very reliable than cable LAN.. i still remembered when all of us went to Low Yat to brought the switch so that all the members in the room can used the internet together at the same time.. but now after all that is going to vanish.. how cruel this people who dont even thinking of others who are really needs...

i dont know how im gonna do my theses after this.. maybe i have to go to my faculty everyday.. kekekeke.. just to do that.. its just a waste of time..

i know that all of us feel hard and angry regarding this matter . .. neither do i..

but there is a way out.. if we all together find the way to resolve it.... chayok2.. =D

lama tak menulis dalam blog ni.. akhirnya ada juga kesempatan untuk mencoretkannya..

pada hari rabu lalu iaitu pada 11 Februari 2009 bersamaan 15 Safar 1430 pergilah Mak Long selamanya meninggal kami semua..

Pada jam 10 pagi, Mak Long menghembuskan nafas dengan anak kesayangannya abg Man berada di sisinya..

Semasa aku mengetahui berita itu, aku masih di dalam kelas Financial Management bersama Noni.. takziah dan Innalillah serta Al-Fatihah yg dapat aku sedekahkan pada waktu itu...

kebetulan pada waktu itu, mak dan abah belum lagi pulang ke Perak selepas menghantar adik ke kolejnya di Jengka, maka mak pun mengajak aku ke rumah Mak Long di Pulau Indah berdekatan dengan Kelang... maka pada tengah harinya aku pun mengikut mak dan abah ke sana.. kami merupakan saudara terawal yg sampai ke sana.. memandangkan mak ndak perlu menghantar ain ke sekolah pada belah petang dan makcu, pakteh serta wan baru bertolak dari Perak...

Sekujur tubuh terbaring sepi di ruang tamu sambil dipenuhi bacaan Yasin dari orang yang datang dan termasukla kami sekeluarga... macam tak percaya pula bila difikirkan kembali.. keluarga aku dan wan  sekeluarga baru sangat berjumpa dengan arwah Mak Long 2 minggu yg lepas.. memang tak sangka perjumpaan itu adalah yg terakhir buat kami semua.. syahdunya perasaan itu...

Mak Long merupakan anak sulong kepada wan dan arwah aki.. mak merupakan adik Mak Long yg ke - 3... Mak Long berumur 67 tahun pada tahun ni.. yg aku pasti ajal itu tidak akan menunggu sesiapa pun.. ia pasti akan tiba jua..

masa sampai tu aku tak merasakan apa2 memandangkan aku tak brapa rapat sangat dengan Mak Long.. yela Mak Long lebih kurang sebaya dengan tok aku belah abah.. tapi aku cucu sulongnya...

takde apa yg aku dapat lakukan kala itu melainkan membaca Yasin untuk arwah Mak Long... semua anak2 Mak Long dah sampai termasukla kak Piah dari phg.. pada jam 4.15 ptg upacara memandikan jenazah dilangsungkan... semua anak2 Mak Long serta mak dan makndak serta cucu perempuannya yg sulong memandikan Mak Long.. aku tunggu di luar memandangkan aku merasa lain macam pada saat itu..

Kemudian dikafankan dengan kain putih.. saat itu aku melihat muka Mak Long yg pucat serta hujung tangan dan kakinya yg kebiru-biruan..
serta akhirnya disolekkan dengan celak dari Mekah.. dan nenek yg uruskan jenazah menulis sesuatu di atas dahi Mak Long.. tapi aku tak pasti apakah yg ditulis dengan air mawar.. kalau tak silap...

akhirnya pada pukul 5.30 solat jenazah dilakukan.. wan sekeluarga masih belum tiba .. saat itu sudah pasti mak dan makndak tak tentu arah mengenangkan wan masih tak sampai.. wan mesti nak tengok muka anaknya buat kali terakhir... akhirnya mereka tiba di Laguna Inn.. maknanya dah dekat... mak cakap dengan orang2 masjid tunggu dulu sebab mak arwah dah nak sampai.. orang2 masjid tersebut terkejut sambil berkata.. mak??? mak pun cakap a ah mak saya dan arwah.. dan orang2 masjid itu bertanya.. berapakah umur mak nya?? mak cakap 85 tahun dah.. Alhamdulilah masih sihat.. sekadar demam biasa... amin..  maka berkatalah orang2 masjid tersebut berkata jumpa di kubur nanti boleh..

jam 6 petang kami menyambut wan sekeluarga dan membawa mereka ke perkarangan kubur.. wan mencium muka Mak Long.. beserta semua adik bradik serta anak beranak Mak Long.. itu adalah pertemuan yg terakhir di atas muka bumi ini...

aku hanya melihat muka Mak Long dari jauh.. pada saat itu air mataku tumpah.. tak tahu kenapa.. tapi aku rasa sangat sebak...
Alhamdulilah semua berjalan dengan lancar... wan pucat dan dipapah masuk ke dalam kereta.. selepas itu bacaan Talkin dijalankan..
sebelum pukul 7 semuanya selesai... dan malam tu di rumah abg man ada bacaan Yasin dan Tahlil selama 3 malam berturut2.. tapi kami sekeluarga dapat ikut serta malam tu je..

semoga roh Mak Long dicucuri rahmat-Mu Ya Allah...

my wish for this 2009...

i know its very late to talk about new year already but.. i just thinking of doing this just a moment ago after i reading june chan lj... =D

the wishes are:

- finishing my 2nd theses... hope it get  very well... =D
- finishing my studies this semester.. there r a lot of heavy subject in that fac... huhuhu
- be proud of my parents...
- be more alert about people surrounding me..
- loved my lil sis more since she will fly this august..
- change my life towards my dreams..
- finding someone before i graduate n turn to 23!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! < dunno if it will fill up!!>

=> enough already... =D

man or boy??? same meaning but refer to different kind of ages....

it sound weird.. but the truth is i really shy in front that ' word' .. y i be like that????? i dont know either.. since today i want to meet that guy.. my palm got wets n felt liked there hv been a butterfly in my stomach.. haish..  even though the meeting was for my thesis ... huhuhuhu

thats y i get scared when i suppose to meet a new guy... i know that i hv to face it already since im not young anymore... huhuhu

wat should i do?? can this feeling fade away??? but im glad that i dont hv problem to speak when im knowing them well.. =D

oh God give me courage to face them equally.. since because of that i like to hang out with female only... =D

i dont have brother.. yet the only man in my house is only abah.. but the world is not just something  we can predict either.. so i hv to make up my mind to surpass all that... like my bravely lil sis.. she's so strong than me..

chayok2.... =D

already watched ep 1 of boys before flowers.. its so ~~~~~~ cant describe it with a words....

hauhauhuahua.. its terrible .... i cant sense any excited when watching it.... the role of hanazawa rui was not suitable at all.. the colour of his hair was so ugly.. kyaaaa~~~~

how come tsukasa in this korean drama not so handsome.. i dont know y they chose nonsuitable actor n ever actress.. as long as i know korea have many talented artist either...

argh dont know ... i dont feel to watch it rite now.. maybe some other time..

=D

p/s =  dgr lagu ni sejak bc paper pasal insan yg bernama afgan .. muda lg orgnyer.. but he so sweet =D
.. bila tgk je muka afgan ni teringat pada seseorg yg jauh sgt dr mata.. muka dorg seakan2 serupa.. ntahla.. hope he will be safe anywhere    ..he go.. =D
.. plg best ms dgr lagu ni nk trn dr bukit fraser sambil buka tingkap n hirup angin sejuk puas2 dr luar.. .... kepuasan yg benar2 dirasai sms ..cuti semester lalu...  since i've give up my heart for him.. this song make me strong to forget him since the last 4 years..  now i had recovered enough... ganbatte ne~~~~ =D

p/s = lagu ini melodinya sgt indah.. membuatkan aku mendgrnyer berjuta2 kali sjk kali pertama dgr ms separuh akhir juara lagu.. =D

wat kind of dream i got last nite... very weird.. hehehe

how come he got into my dream??? =P maybe becoz i saw him yesterday twice time..

one when i was waiting noni who went to meet mr chiew..

2nd one when the bus stop in front of fsktm n he was headed towards the bus n i was the one in the bus saw him real clearly.. =P

my feeling for him?? erm nothing really.. coz my heart doesnt feel any kind of dug dag of heartbit .. something like that anymore..

maybe becoz this is the 1st time i saw him this semester.. since i dont have any subject at fsktm this sem..

i dont have any feeling for man at  this moment.. =D

Beauty Pop manga was finished already.. xsgka lak cptnya abis manga tuh.. huhuhu.. but yg bestnya ending dia mmg best sgt2.. =D

naru naru n puffy head bersama n dh dpt anak kembar.. sorg lelaki n sorg pompuan.. comel sgt.. =D just like their parents... =D

but kind of sad because this manga was so little.. the last chapter was 51 only.. it showed after 10 years later before that kiri chan moved to LA to be with her family.. since her mum is make up stylish at LA n his otosan is hair stylish staying there... =D

the fav moment when naru naru huged her before she boarding.. n then he said that he will learn n improved his skills n show it to kiri chan.. n kiri chan said she will be waiting at LA.. hehe.. sweet nee~~~ =D

n not to forget... kiri chan gives her fav cap to naru naru before she left.. so thats means kiri chan also have feeling for naru kun.. not only him.. =D

best manga.. =D i like this kind of manga.. simple n love is something thats come when the time is right.. =D have to be ourselves in wat kind of situations..

sad but happy.. hope there'll be an anime or drama after this.. =D

~~~~~continuining reading ouran high school.. special a.. manga..  =D